Feeling better, it's always good

Well, after taking four days off, I have to say my first day back at work is not so bad. In fact I'm feeling pretty good about it right now. Of course I was supposed to be back yesterday, but my dog was sick and had to be taken to the vet. Sure, normally, I'd ask someone else to do that, but I was the only person here so it fell to me. He's doing better and I managed to sneak the little guy his meds without him knowing it...score!

The only thing different today is my attitude, and after a few days of introspection and rest I realized that I am merely feeling what I would consider normal reactions to the frustration of having no power over what things happen at the place where I work. I don't agree with everything, I don't like everything but if I want to continue working there my only option is to just try to carry on. I have a right to work wherever I want, but if I choose to stay somewhere then I kind of have to weather the storms of change without complaining too much.

I've also concluded that there are certain elements in my environment that I simply have to endure. I won't elaborate too much. It's more of an issue with the attitude of a single person than anything else. It's amazing how a negative energy can sap your spirit.

But, I can't let that happen. I can't let negativity gain any ground on me as I spent many a year in the past allowing that exact thing to happen. I've got to remind myself from time to time that I need to stay upbeat and not be taken over by all of the negative things I think, hear or feel. It's just not productive.

So, I've had a refresh and I'm back today with a better frame of mind.

I know the future is always changing, so, better to be less like a boat being tossed about on the seas of fate than to simply float along like the stolid iceberg.....haha!

BTW, I'm almost done with the double knit hat. Yea!

Double Knitting you say - Oh yeah! Halfway there.

So here is the double knit hat I've been working on as a test. It looks pretty good, well by my standards.

Also, I've included a pic of a washcloth I whipped out last night.

I have been on vacation the past 5 days and LOVING it. Now, tomorrow, it's back to work. Blech. Or perhaps Meh?

I'm not sure why I am so ambivalent or displeased about going back to work but I definitely do not want to go back. If I do, it's only to see my friends.

Don't get me wrong, the work is fun and I do like my boss and co-workers. What do I not want to return to though? Not sure.

I'm thinking it has more to do with the many, many changes that have happened the last 2 years. When I moved from the publications area to marketing I LOVED my job. For me it was like a promotion. I couldn't wait for the next project to work on. Then, the changes.

They merged us all together. Now, on paper, that likely seems to be a good idea. However, from my perception, it was like a demotion. While I am still doing the same work, the environment has changed. The two of us that were in marketing are staff-level. We are salary. The others in our group are hourly. To me, the way those in charge have always made the hourly folks feel was rarely entirely positive

While I am doing the same work, I don't feel the same way about the job or the place.

It's sad.

Luckily I do have knitting to inspire me and keep my creative juices flowing.